FAITH

FAITH the word is very imp in everybody’s life. It determines our character our response our believes and in a nutshell our life. And what derives our faith is our experience. And two such experiences changed my faith.

Life was going smoothly a great fun but I knew that down side of sinusoid has to come sooner or later. It came and came so well that it taught me practical lesson 100 books of wisdom can’t teach. It was about human faith. Long back I read that life is a play with various acts and scenes. This experience was about the characters in that play called life. This was the lesson about, who should be the central character of Ur play. Life will simple and on track till the time we keep our self as the main hero of our play. The moment somebody else takes this role the end is going to be tragic. The moment ur happiness and sadness is decided by somebody else in ur life, be ready for some good lessons. For me the lesson came soon- the loss of faith in humans. But as they say there is nothing good or bad in life, they are only lessons. And this one was the lesson which every body should get in their life to come out of arrogance, self conceit and selfish motives and more importantly to understand the complex thing called Homo sapiens. It taught me the practical of what I was reading – don’t live in dream world live on this earth and work for it. For the moment ur happiness depends on ur expectations from others it is the day ur mood swings will start. So let ur soul free itself from desires of money, love and worldly pleasures and dedicate it for a purpose to serve mankind. Though it’s a long way ahead but I know this is the first step given be the right jolt in my life. Thanks god!!!

But alas second experience was even much bitter from the first one as it pierced the points already wounded by the first one. As I was licking my old wounds this experience acted as salt on those wounds. And nobody can ever be ready for such an experience in their life. This one was about the loss of faith in God!!
I used to love him very much. He was my only support when I found myself dwindling in the path of life. He was the only friend who used to be there at my side when everyone else was busy in his world. He used to guide me when I used to approach him bewildered with the questions of life. He was my love in my lonely times. He used to calm my perturbed and tormented soul.He was my everything becoz he was my FAITH. And as if sky fell upon me I found that faith was baseless, that support hollow and that belief vague, becoz he never existed!!! Like billions of others I was living in a fool’s paradise where we base our faith on someone who doesn’t even exist. I know u will criticize me, hate me, laugh on me, and explain it to me that no see he exists but alas I don’t want to argue about it. Those cries, that pain, that agony they explained me everything. Leave apart justice of god even human justice cannot justify it. I found my faith laughing on me that o fool where are u pining ur hopes to? On the one who was created out of human weakness and on whose name powerful people fool powerless people to live life of tyrants and capitalists? The FAITH was lost forever.

But destiny follows a path of its own. While I lost two most important faiths, the crutches for my survival in this world, for the first time I experienced a life without crutches- FAITH IN MYSELF. It was the faith in me to fight against all the odds; my destiny is going to bring in my life. Let life give me any no of blows it wants but every time I will stand up and fight back. Becoz now there is nobody else to support I have to stand up on my own legs. I came alone to this world, I fill fight alone against all the odds and I will go alone. I will no more be fooled by either the love of”some others” to make me happy or the support of omnipotent God to save me from sadness. Becoz now I know “Dukham Param satyam”- pain is the essence of life.U has to live with it and that too alone so instead of looking for support fight it and win over it. With this came the new wave of serving some “bigger purpose” in life for the betterment of mankind. To live in a world where FAITH on Ur own self is supreme. Becoz”it is better to die standing tall than to live on Ur knees”. May this FAITH gives me the meaning of my life.